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| I love snow days!!!!...well before the snow day i went to my track meet and got 5th in high jump...which is alright for my first meet i guess. But congrats to meg for placing 2nd in the pole vault! My family and caleb came down to watch me and i was super happy! Then after the meet we went out to eat and that was interesting and some comments i wish i could forget...but anyways...i've been super lazy this weekend...caleb has been home and its great fun!...hopefully we will be going to play in the snow soon!...I love snow days!!!....
LIz
Pam, caleb and i all went out and played in the snow...yeah it was good fun...u guys have to see the video of pam going over the snow pile...lol...its great!
Here are some pictures of playing in the snow...theres more pix on calebs
(you cant tell but im being pulled by a car...)
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| Its very difficult to put into words how I am feeling. I feel very angry that she is gone and at the same time I feel very sad that I never get to see my sister on earth ever again. It does make me happy that she is in heaven with no problems and no pain, but I guess you could say I'm a little jealous  . I went and put flowers on her grave and on the spot on the interstate, while at the interstate I've never experienced so many emotions at once. At first I became very angry and I just wanted to scream, I was so mad! After that I walked to my car and just began to pray and I just started crying and I couldn’t even drive. I went to her grave next and sat in my car, I didn’t want to see it. Its so weird that she is gone, and now that it is her one year it just seems to finalize things, like she is REALLY gone and I just cant get over it! I don’t understand a lot of things that happened in my life but most of all I don’t know why God took Michelle from us. I'm very confused, angry, and sad. I feel very lost and I feel such a hole in my heart that I makes it hard for me to breathe. Every day I just wake up crying and lost, sometimes I feel so alone and helpless, Michelle was my best friend and big sister. Everything I see reminds me of her and I cant seem to get away from all this. I never really dealt with the hurts from losing a sister and now they have caught up with me and I feel feelings stronger then ever. I cant even begin to describe how deep my hurt is. Well this email is depressing enough and I just wanted to let you know that I'm not suicidal or anything b/c this email makes me sound like that. I've just been praying a lot and hoping to find something to help the pain. I'm really confused on where I'm suppose to go from here and how I'm ever going to feel better and get over this...if ever. | | |
| Dont worry guys...i havent completly gone to myspace...i still love my xanga!...so the ski trip was really fun!...i got to shop and hang out with friends...id recomend it to anyone! | | |
| I've converted to a myspace now...
www.myspace.com/highjumpgrl | | |
| So i dont know what to do...everyone has a myspace...but i dont know if i should get one... ...i like my xanga...u guys should tell me what to do...lol!
This last weekend was really fun...i realized how much fun caleb pam and katy really are! If ur reading this that means ur probly one of my close friends so u probly know about this weekend so im not gonna go into detail about it....it was really fun though! I like all my new friends...lol...since meg leaves me all the time for steadman...j/k meg i love you!
Im really excited to go to colorado! i hope its a lot of fun...im most excited about the shopping and hot tubs!...
Next week i have to show a bunch of kids how to high jump...i havent jumped in forever! i hope i dont look silly in front of all those kids..lol...
I have a lot of things coming up and ill tell u guys how everything goes later....
Happy Valentines Day! (even though i dont have a valentine  )
Liz | | |
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